Losing the Baby Weight

Ok, the title is deceiving, but maybe readers can relate to my current journey: weightloss.

I’m not losing baby weight. In fact, I lost about 45 lbs from the time I conceived until about a week after I delivered.

I’m just losing weight in general and have been for the last 7 years.  I thought about this post today while speaking with one of my subordinates at work. She is young, 23, no children, lives alone, and doesn’t have much of a social life. She is also a plus-sized Latina who, though beautiful in looks and personality, is on a dangerous path, in my opinion.

Back in college, I wish I knew what I know now. Believe it or not, I knew NOTHING about how one gains or loses weight. I just loved to eat and wasn’t interested in anything sports- or exercise- related because no one ever pushed me towards it and because I never had to do it. I was about her age when I was diagnosed with Type II Diabetes and had to learn an entire new way of living. So, I see her, and I have reached out to her to give her some encouragement and motivation to lose the weight NOW. I see myself in her and maybe I feel like I’m going back in time. I told her it will melt off and her skin elasticity is priceless. She’s never thought about losing weight because, like me, no one talked about healthy eating/living in her life. There are a lot of cultural issues involved with this, with Black and Latina women more likely to be overweight. But that’s not the point of this post.

Since my diagnosis, I have been up and down on this journey. I started off losing about 100 lbs in about a year, only to gain 75 back over 2 years, then I lost 45 with the baby, and in the last 3 years, I’ve gained 20 back. That 20 is net because I dropped low low and went high high.  I’m an emotional eater, so going through the dissolution of my marriage, I found comfort in my love of food.

However, today is a new day.

I’m no longer carrying the emotional baggage. I no longer have the “I have no money for a gym” or “I have no time to go workout” excuse. I’m no longer seeking comfort foods to fill the voids in my life. I have the time, I have the energy, I have the focus, and I’m putting my plan into action. For real this time.

I’m feeling better already. I’m sleeping better, I have more energy, and I feel like I’m finally buckling down and doing something for myself after years of sacrificing and giving up my time and energy to serve and please others.

So maybe it isn’t the baby weight that I needed to lose. Maybe it was the weight of a bad marriage, the weight of low-esteem, the weight of financial burdens, the weight of being a new mom, and the weight of being unfocused and out-of-sorts that I have had to shed to finally be able to achieve a long-term goal of mine.

I’m finally, as the young folks say, “Doing me”

🙂

6 thoughts on “Losing the Baby Weight

  1. I love this part of you post:

    “So maybe it isn’t the baby weight that I needed to lose. Maybe it was the weight of a bad marriage, the weight of low-esteem, the weight of financial burdens, the weight of being a new mom, and the weight of being unfocused and out-of-sorts that I have had to shed to finally be able to achieve a long-term goal of mine.”

    I have yet to find out what exactly keeps me packing on the pounds. I really can’t blame my three children because I was the thinist I’ve been in my 20s after Locke and Clarke were born. I need to get disciplined about exercising. My treadmill is in my storage space 😦

    I feel you especially on the whole “unfocused and out-of-sorts” part. My inability to concentrate is getting really bad lately and is affecting multiple parts of my life. I wouldn’t be suprised if it is part of the reason that I wont slow down to take care of my health/appearance.

    Learning a lot from you!

    Tanji

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  2. I just don’t think enough of us take into account the physical effects we experience from the issues, trials, and struggles we deal with. Then, if we notice physical issues, we don’t connect them to other things going on in our lives. Out outer always reflects our inner, in my opinion

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    1. “Outer always reflects our inner, in my opinion.”

      So true. My issue right now is not weight gain, but weight loss. I’ve lost almost 10 pounds in the last few months, but don’t have a lot of weight to lose, and I’m not eating well and I’m afraid that there’s not really anything “wrong” with me besides just stress and not taking care of myself. And that scares me because taking care of yourself takes time and my mind is like –

      “I don’t have time for that!!”

      Craziness, I know.

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      1. i just attended a training on self-care and how important it is, especially for people in my field. We absorb so many problems from other people, that the empathy begins to wear on us. We have to learn how to take time out each day, even if it is only 15-20 minutes, to just decompress. Do something we enjoy. Do some Yoga. Get a pedicure. A little retail therapy. Something just for US. Not the kids or partners. Something exclusively enjoyed by us. If we don’t, we’ll crumble and be no good to anyone.

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